My Sad Christmas

It’s Christmas time once again. Every 25th day of December, the whole world celebrate Christmas day. It is the day when our savior, Jesus Christ was born in Bethlehem. Because it is celebrated only once a year, so many people were so excited. It is common to have a Christmas Party and prepare Noche Buena for the Christmas Eve. There are some who are really extravagant but there are also some who are simply happy and satisfied if their family is complete.

Christmas is also important because it is the time when people will be united. Spread the love by sharing the blessings we received, forgive the people who hurt us, as well as, we should ask forgiveness to those people we hurt and we have sinned in the past. And these is the reason why I am not perfectly happy this Lenten Season.

This is how my problem starts. I have friend, I just named her Jenny (not true name to cover her identity) and he has a boyfriend named Ram (not real name also). Last year December 2007, I noticed that Ram always staring at me. Wherever I go, he always looks at me but I also always ignored his presence because he is the bf of my friend. But one time, our common friend told me that this guy, Ram, likes me. As I got the information, I was so flattered because someone likes me and also at the same time , I was worried because I know if ever Jenny will know , surely she would be hurt . I decided to talk to Ram so that his felling for me will be stop as early as he can and no one will suffer at the end. I advice him not to love me because he has Gf and I always act like a child so that he will be discouraged to me and never love me. But as the time goes by, even though I really tried my best to disregard his attention but I admit, I am not perfect!!! I am only human and can do wrong. On 24th day of December, I allow him to be my Bf and my purpose is to teach him lesson and not to have intimate relationship with him. But as what I have said a while ago, I am not perfect. I feel in love with him and these feelings go deeply. On January 1, 2008, Jenny know our relationship and she was hurt so badly and was angry to us and that day also, Jenny decided to broke up to guy, but the latter won’t to do so. On January 3 same year, me, Jenny and Ram seriously discussing the issue between us. I have decided that I should be the one to go away because, in the first place, I am the one reason why their relationship was in trouble. And I sincerely ask her forgiveness and promise to them that I will no longer disturb them. Although I ask her apology, Jenny didn’t forgive me until now. And she Promise to herself that she will do anything just to put me down and I will never be happy and have successful life.

Now, December, 2008, I still feel the pain inside me. I really suffer the consequences on what I have done. I am so ashamed because almost all the people in our community knew that issue and they are accused me. I feel like a bad girl but I always do my best to take the right path. And I wish to our Almighty God that me together with my family will have a peaceful life this coming new year and for more years to come.

Its Christmas and we should be united. I wish that Jenny will forgive me in spite of the many damages that I bring to them. And to you readers, even though I don’t know the right grammar in English, I want to tell you that nobody is perfect and let us forgive each other and also do not follow my mistakes. I hope the readers can get a lessons base from experience. Thank you for reading. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of us.

My First Post

4:30 pm. I'm here in computer laboratory making my first blog. I'm so excited to write but I don't know what to write on my blog because honestly I am not perfect in writing and my grammar in English is very poor. And also, I am not familiar with the website Blog I am only familiar to friendster , yahoo, and all the games that are played in the computer.